Current mood: crushed

WELL ITS LATE BUT I HAVE TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST, I THINK THAT I AM A GOOD FRIEND, A GOOD PERSON, BUT WHEN IT COMES TO RELATIONSHIPS I AM A FAILER THE ONLY PERSON THAT HAS MADE ME THE HAPPIEST WOMEN ALIVE I HAD TO LET GO BECAUSE OF MY STUPIDITY. I FEEL THAT IN A WAY I AM LEARNING BUT IT IS VERY FUSTRATING TO JUST TRY AND BE WHAT OTHERS WANT YOU TO BE, WELL I AM TIERD AND I AM JUST GOING TO BE ME AND THATS IT. I HOPE THAT ALL THE PEOPLE THAT REALLY KNOW ME CAN HELP ME BECAUSE THIS IS A LARGE STEP THAT I AM TAKING. I KNOW THAT AT TIMES I CAN BE A PAIN AND THAT I CAN ACT LIKE NADA CAN HURT ME BUT ITS NOT TRUE I HAVE BEEN SCARED TO JUST LET MY FEELINGS GO LOOSE BECAUSE I AM SCARED THAT ONES MORE I WILL GET HURT I HAVE SUFFER MORE THEN ALL OF YOU CAN IMAGIN. THIS GOES OUT TO BOO BOO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN, LOVE YOU,AND TO ELLIOT  I HOPE THAT YOU ARE NOT MAD IT IS JUST THAT I HAVE TO FORGET ABOUT ALOT OF THINGS BEFORE I CAN DO ALL THOSE THINGS I HOPE YOU CAN UNDERSTAND, AND LIKE I SAID ME AND YOU WILL HAVE A GOOD TALK LATER I JUST HOPE THAT YOU CAN UNDERSTAND ME. BUT I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW YOU DO MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. ITS JUST THAT I HAVE ALOT GOING ON IN MY LIFE IT NOT ONLY YOU I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ITS MY FAMILIA, FRIENDS, AND MOST IMPORTANLY MY SELF.